Making a difference

September 29, 2012
This time around will make twice that B and I are host parents.  I truly enjoy doing this. Have had several people to tell me that I glow/parenthood looks great on me/I really look happy.
I look happy because I am.  It really makes me happy knowing that I am going to changing some one's future for the better.  No matter how cliché  it's true, I make a difference.  Believe it or not this concept is new to me.  I did not enter in to this lightly or knowing what was to come but this is one sure part of my life that I will never look back on and regret any part of it. It has always been and will always be laid out for me/my future, in my future.  I almost would say I am at a loss for words in describing how much it means to me but I can say that for anyone out there who is a doubter, dismiss-er  negative-r you don't know what your missing and never will understand.  For me, slowly coming to the realization that I may never have natural born children and how difficult it is to adopt/foster I guess this is my right now pacifier   That sounds bad but I mean it in the best way.  Some people I know look at these kids as an obligation to their friends who talked them into it or as maids or even worse as slaves.  I will never understand them.  I have formed very close relationships with these kids.  I don't know if I can define the relationship not that I want to.  I'm just enjoying it.
I'm learning the same amount if not more from these guys as they are from us.  Yes, believe it or not, I did NOT push the hubby into this.  He willingly/happily opened up for this on his own.  No one, except my mom, has accused me otherwise but I do believe there are others that believe I pushed him into this.  I do realize that those people, no matter what I say, are always going to believe what they want to believe; lies and all.
I have a feeling that having these guys here are as close to being a "world traveler" as I'm going to get but that's fine...actually better because I learn and open my heart freely and won't be hurt.  I warmly accept what they have to teach me.

What kind of difference do I want to make in these guys lives?  Well, for any and all ES that come to stay with us, first off I hope we make a good, kind, giving, emphatic, open-minded, patriotic, clean, happy, impression.  That's is all the adjectives I could think of right now but as I think of more I will add them. :-)  I hope it does shed light on southerns as not all being stupid rednecks.  Now we personally do enjoy a good laugh at ourselves ever now and again because we are all human and we all make mistakes-some mistakes more stupid than others-but all the same.